Note to self

Goal setting has to be more important than skin care right now, or rather, skin care has to be budgeted, because I budget time now and I budget my money, like a bad b. Because I said to myself I need to be successful, I need to be financially free and I could be worse off but I’m not, so I might as well meet … Continue reading Note to self

all of me

Sometimes I feel alone, like now at 6.26am. And I’m not used to feeling alone anymore, not like I used to. I used to love being alone, partially because in being alone, the different versions of me used to creep out and I used to welcome them, all different sides of me. With content and non judgment. Now I judge, I’m slightly harsher, do I … Continue reading all of me


i feel so deeply hurt like i’m cut from the inside i know i need help, i know i need help. i want to pour out this pain, i want to show people who dare to explore my work my pain, my loneliness, my mind space. this is the process. Continue reading process


  I found Jesus yesterday and I feel an inner calm, I still need to sleep better, I still need to clean up all the mess, Because I feel like I just come back home. No money in my account yet, but theres love in my heart, I feel like nothing really is ever more important than God. And through God anything is possible. Continue reading Remembering

Want a waffle?

Waffles in bed. 2 waffles and me equals a shit sandwich. Haven’t left my room in a couple days now, haven’t left my house either. This is limbo. I sleep with motivational videos and law of attraction videos and ‘the power of believing’ videos and I read, I read a lot, and I write affirmations upon affirmations and not that I’m asking you to speed … Continue reading Want a waffle?

Current interests as of 15th October 2018

If I do this often enough I might see a patten, right? This is me taking myself and my interests more seriously. I think through documenting what I like, want to do, aspire to, thoughts, feelings and reflections, I’ll begin to understand myself a bit better. My interests update: Photography archives – photography with a strong sense of purpose, aroused from a deep understand or … Continue reading Current interests as of 15th October 2018