It’s crazy when you know whats good for you but somehow find a way to avoid doing those things. Is it a subconscious fear of progress? Or is it a genuine laziness? It’s complex, it’s everything and then some. It’s a lonely journey sometimes. I have nobody to face but myself. A journey which I once loved wholeheartedly has become a tiring pursuit of digging … Continue reading Friday night
I’ve been pulling, no, dragging myself out of this rut that I put myself in for months now. And I think i’m in a place now of maintenance and implementation. This means, maintaining all the effort I’ve put in to get myself in a good place mentally and implementing all the new things I’ve learnt to put myself in the best possible predicaments. I’m starting … Continue reading Living my best life
Where do insecurities lie within the inner depths of my ocean, so I can reach down and pluck them, burn them on land and send them off in smoke to God in the ether. Why must disruption be apart of life, when life is just and life is God and God is love, is disruption love? And if so why must love cause pain if … Continue reading seated on the edge
*inserts deep meaningful quote about running being life here* “In the race of life, you need self confidence, courage and faith in your abilities to win the race.” What is going to keep me consistent when it comes to waking up relatively early, in the cold, in winter, sleep deprived to the gym where I will further push the limits of my mortal body? I’ve set … Continue reading Working out turned spiritual enlightenment?
Don’t be a taker be a giver… “what you bring to the table determines who sits at your table” wise words from Shanel Cooper-Sykes It gets boring feeling lonely. After a while you want to just talk with people who you really connect with and who connect with you, without pretence. I’m on this journey of betterment, not just for myself but to find my … Continue reading Goal: Have more like-minded friends
i feel so deeply hurt like i’m cut from the inside i know i need help, i know i need help. i want to pour out this pain, i want to show people who dare to explore my work my pain, my loneliness, my mind space. this is the process. Continue reading process
Waffles in bed. 2 waffles and me equals a shit sandwich. Haven’t left my room in a couple days now, haven’t left my house either. This is limbo. I sleep with motivational videos and law of attraction videos and ‘the power of believing’ videos and I read, I read a lot, and I write affirmations upon affirmations and not that I’m asking you to speed … Continue reading Want a waffle?